LATE NEW YEARS RESOLUTION

So my New Years resolution this year was to stop a nasty habit, that I have had off and on for my entire life - chewing my fingernails. (I know, I know... ewwww gross!) It was mainly my stress reliever, but it was a habit also.

All of my life I have chewed them. Most of the time I didn't even realize I was doing it. I would gnaw them off until they bled a lot of times. On more than one occasion I can remember every finger hurting because I had gone on a rampage.

When I was sick, right before my wedding of course, I was extremely stressed out and gnawed every single one of them off, and since I had staph throughout my entire body, I couldn't get my nails done, even if I had the time to get them done. I tried my hardest to hide my hands in my wedding pictures, but after awhile, I was too tired to think about it.

So this year, I decided I was sick of my fingers looking horrific all of the time, and thus my resolution for 2009. It lasted about 30 seconds. I was waaaaaaaay too stressed out about being out of work, so I don't know what I was thinking.

Good news is, since I have been working, I haven't had the time to think about biting them and they are slowly trying to grow back. Right now I have little white lines on the top and everything! I'm kind of proud of myself for getting rid of this disgusting habit, so hopefully it will last!!

Pray it will

Health update:

Just saw Dr. Hinshaw about the whole enlarged heart thing... He said he wasn't worried because you can't really get a good read on the heart from an x-ray. He said I looked good, no swelling, my heart and valve sounded REALLY good, in fact he sort of freaked out at first because he couldn't heart my valve ticking as loud as it usually does... but it has been a year and a half, so scar tissue is building up around it to soften the LOUD ticking that used to torture me at night LOL.

So no Echo ordered for now. We are just watching for any swelling or shortness of breath. I know all the symptoms, and have access to the Echo lab anytime I want, thanks to Uncle Kevin! So everything is A-OK!!! His only rx was get my big ass in to the gym... *heavy sigh* unfortunately he didn't give me a rx to get rid of my eternal laziness :-(

PRAY THAT I FIND A CURE FOR MY LAZINESS!!!!!

This AWESOME...

After living what I felt was a 'decent' life, my time on earth came to the end.

The first thing I remember is sitting on a bench in the waiting Room of what I thought to be a court house. The doors opened and I was instructed to come in and have a seat by the defense table.

As I looked around I saw the 'prosecutor.' He was a villainous looking gent who snarled as he stared at me. He definitely was the most evil person I have ever seen.

I sat down and looked to my left and there sat My Attorney, A kind and gentle looking man whose appearance seemed so familiar to Me, I felt I knew Him.

The corner door flew open and there appeared the Judge in full Flowing robes. He commanded an awesome presence as He moved across the room I couldn't take my eyes off of Him. As He took His seat behind the bench, He said, 'Let us begin.'

The prosecutor rose and said, 'My name is Satan and I am here to show you why this man belongs in hell.' He proceeded to tell of lies that I told, things that I stole, and In the past when I cheated others Satan told of other horrible perversions that were once in my life and the more he spoke, the Further down in my seat I sank. I was so embarrassed that I couldn't look at anyone, even my own Attorney, as the Devil told of sins that even I had completely forgotten about.

As upset as I was at Satan for telling all these things about me, I was equally upset at My Attorney who sat there silently not Offering any form of defense at all.

I know I had been guilty of those things, but I had done some good in my life - couldn't that at least equal out part of the harm I'd done?

Satan finished with a fury and said, 'This man belongs in hell, he is guilty of all that I have charged and there is not a person who can prove otherwise.'

When it was His turn, My Attorney first asked if He might approach the bench. The Judge allowed this over the strong objection of Satan, and beckoned Him to come forward.

As He got up and started walking, I was able to see Him in his full splendor and majesty. I realized why He seemed so familiar; this was Jesus representing me, My Lord and my Savior.

He stopped at the bench and softly said to the Judge, 'Hi, Dad,' and then He turned to address the court.

'Satan was correct in saying that this man had sinned, I won't deny any of these allegations. And, yes, the wage of sin is death, and this man deserves to be punished.

Jesus took a deep breath and turned to His Father with outstretched arms and proclaimed, 'However, I died on the cross so That this person might have eternal life and he has accepted Me as his Savior, so he is Mine.'

My Lord continued with, 'His name is written in the Book of Life, and no one can snatch him from Me...

Satan still does not understand yet. This man is not to be given justice, but rather mercy.'

As Jesus sat down, He quietly paused, looked at His Father and said,’ There is nothing else that needs to be done.' 'I've done it all.'

The Judge lifted His mighty hand and slammed the gavel down. The following words bellowed from His lips.. 'This man is free.' 'The penalty for him has already been paid in full.' 'Case dismissed.'

As my Lord led me away, I could hear Satan ranting and raving, 'I won't give up, I will win the next one.'

I asked Jesus as He gave me my instructions where to go next, 'Have you ever lost a case?'

Christ lovingly smiled and said, 'Everyone that has come to Me and asked Me to represent them has received the same verdict as you,

~Paid In Full~

HILARIOUS CHURCH BULLETIN BLOOPERS

They're Back! Those wonderful Church Bulletins! Thank God for church ladies with typewriters. These sentences (with all the BLOOPERS) actually appeared in church bulletins or were announced in church services:
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The Fasting & Prayer Conference includes snacks and meals.
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The sermon this morning: 'Jesus Walks on the Water.' The sermon tonight: 'Searching for Jesus.'
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Ladies, don't forget the rummage sale. It's a chance to get rid of those things not worth keeping around the house. Bring your husbands.
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Remember in prayer the many who are sick of our community. Smile at someone who is hard to love. Say 'Hell' to someone who doesn't care much about you.
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Don't let worry kill you off - let the Church help.
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Miss Charlene Mason sang 'I will not pass this way again,' giving obvious pleasure to the congregation.
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For those of you who have children and don't know it, we have a nursery downstairs.
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Next Thursday there will be tryouts for the choir. They need all the help they can get.
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Irving Benson and Jessie Carter were married on October 24 in the church. So ends a friendship that began in their school days.
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A bean supper will be held on Tuesday evening in the church hall. Music will follow.
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At the evening service tonight, the sermon topic will be 'What Is Hell?' Come early and listen to our choir practice.
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Eight new choir robes are currently needed due to the addition of several new members and to the deterioration of some older ones.
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Scouts are saving aluminum cans, bottles and other items to be recycled. Proceeds will be used to cripple children.
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Please place your donation in the envelope along with the deceased person you will want remembered.
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The church will host an evening of fine dining, super entertainment and gracious hostility.
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Potluck supper Sunday at 5:00 PM - prayer and medication to follow.
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The ladies of the Church have cast off clothing of every kind. They may be seen in the basement on Friday afternoon..
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This evening at 7 PM there will be a hymn singing in the park across from the Church. Bring a blanket and come prepared to sin.
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Ladies Bible Study will be held Thursday morning at 10 AM. All ladies are invited to lunch in the Fellowship Hall after the B. S. Is done.
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The pastor would appreciate it if the ladies of the Congregation would lend him their electric girdles for the pancake breakfast next Sunday.
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Low Self Esteem Support Group will meet Thursday at 7 PM. Please use the back door.
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The eighth-graders will be presenting Shakespeare's Hamlet in the Church basement Friday at 7 PM. The congregation is invited to attend this tragedy.
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Weight Watchers will meet at 7 PM at the First Presbyterian Church. Please use large double door at the side entrance.
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AND FINALLY!

The Associate Minister unveiled the church's new campaign slogan last Sunday: 'I Upped My Pledge so up yours.'

MUST SEE VIDEO!!!!

You have to watch this video... kittens + a tissue box = ADORABLE

http://video.yahoo.com/watch/880576/3602881

MOVIES!

We just watched Eagle Eye, Max Payne and Fireproof. All good. Lots of action in Max Payne and Eagle Eye... Way more blood in Max Payne.

None really for the kiddos though. I really want to go see Monsters vs. Aliens... We'll see if it makes on to the movie watching agenda soon!

I LOVE MY HUSBAND

I was in a dead sleep this morning. About 3am I sort of sensed someone staring at me... I look over and Brendan's just staring at me, he's been crying.

I say "what's wrong babe?"

He sniffs and says he has just watched the movie Fire Proof and feels like he is a lousy husband. WHOA! That's pretty heavy at 3am.

I haven't seen the movie myself, yet... but I can't imagine what it's like! My husband does not just cry for no reason. And I have no idea WHY it made him feel that way. He said it made him realize that he doesn't treat me how he should. This blows my mind, because I think he is a terrific husband and provider. Sure he gets in his moods, but who doesn't? No one has a perfect day, every day....

All I know is that he referred to this movie as "life changing", so I need to pop it in the DVD player ASAP!!

* I watched it... very good movie. Definitely shows you how you should treat your spouse AND that God should be in charge

My So Called, not so exciting, Life...

I know I haven't posted anything lately. Quite frankly, up until yesterday I was sick as a dog... plus, other than loving my new job (still!), I really haven't had anything to talk about. Is that a good or bad thing LOL? I am a lot more comfortable in my job now. It's definitely not rocket science, and we won't be curing diseases, but we run a facility that people need, and we do it to the best of our abilities. I guess that's all you can really ask for in life. God has blessed me a hundred times over, and this place is one of those blessings!

On the movie front... (you know I couldn't post a blog without mentioning our favorite past times!)

We went and saw Watchmen, Taken and Knowing recently. All were pretty good.

Taken really makes you fall in love with Liam Neeson. He's a total bad ass... AND it makes you think about what can/does happen to people who travel to other countries and... WHOOPS, almost gave the main plot away!!!! I highly recommend everyone OVER the age of 18 go see it. It has some very strong adult content that's totally unsuitable for the little ones.

I didn't really get Watchmen. I guess you had to really be in to comics? There were some cool characters in it, but it didn't blow me away.

Knowing was good, but very weird at the end, also very sad. Nuff said, go see it.

Twilight came out Saturday. I haven't gone to go get my copy yet, but you know I will SOON!!! Oh Edward, you are so deadly, but so yummmmmy ;-)

On the health front...

*NOTE: no one panic, please... I really think this is no big deal...

I went to the walk-in clinic Friday, because I kept running fever and my cough was out of control. I felt rattling when I took a breath and that has never been a good sign. Luckily the doctor that saved my life in 2007 was on that night, Dr. Mario Pena (LOVE YOU DOC!!!) and to my surprise he remembered me from that time. So I tell him what's going on, he doesn't "hear" any sign of pneumonia, but since I have the history I have, he ordered a chest x-ray to be safe.

So he views the x-ray and says he thinks my heart looks slightly enlarged and that I need to see my PCP or cardiologist ASAP. Needless to say, my heart kind of went up into my throat for a minute.

My loving husband, who is so wise, told me not to worry... he was almost certain that it was nothing to worry about. He has a theory that because my heart was so enlarged a year and a half ago (as a result from the congestive heart failure) it is still trying to go back down in size. I don't know why, but that makes sense to me. I am no doctor (but I play one on TV - ahhhhhhh hahahaha - CHEESY!), but my heart was like.... HUGE from the Endocarditis and mitral regurgitation. it will take it awhile to fully recover from that.

So even though I have no confirmation on this... I have a calm feeling about all of it, plus I know God's watching out for me, like he always does. So I am totally not worried about it :-) I go see Dr. Hinshaw on Tuesday, and we will just have to wait and see what he says. I SOOOOO hope he doesn't have me go see my cardiologist, because she will totally yell at me for not losing any weight, like she told me too... BOO!

Well, that pretty much wraps it up... now that life is back to normal (with an exception here and there I guess), I'm not that exciting hahaha... oh wait, was I exciting before?!

My Week...

The job at Wilkerson is going AWESOMELY!!! All of the people I work with are great, so nice, so helpful. The lady I am replacing will be here for at least a month, so we can take training slow, so I can get really comfortable with everything. My official title is Freezer Dock Manager... but I help out wherever I am needed. The customers are pretty nice, not too demanding.

I feel so incredibly lucky and blessed. Now, if it would either SNOW FOR REAL or be nice and sunny around here I'd be completely content, as the change in weather has kept me sick all week... but amen for Z-Packs!!!!!

FINALLY!!!!!

Yesterday evening I got a call from Bill at Wilkerson Storage. I applied there a couple of months ago, and interviewed twice... but in the end they chose someone else. I was pretty upset by it...

Well last night Bill called and asked me if I still wanted the job... the lady they had hired, instead of me, didn't work out (I resisted the urge to say "I knew you made the wrong decision!") and he offered me the job! I of course said YES!!

I go in Monday AM to take a drug screen and I start work Tuesday.

God is so good to us. He certainly takes his time... but it is worth it in the end!!

*UPDATE 3/11/09: so far so good! I REALLY like the people I work with and the job training is going well. YAY!!!!

I was tagged by Jen!

My HandbagHere are the rules:





1. Post a picture of whichever bag you are using today - no cheating now!





2. Tell us how much it cost and if there is a story behind it (whats in it?)!





3. Tag some fellow bloggers and link back to this post so people know why you are posting pictures of your bag.

1. This is my itty bitty Coach purse. I have a little button on the Coach tag that says "I am loved" from my Valentine's Day gift from Helzberg. It just reminds, once again, how awesome my husband is and how much he loves me

2. Brendan got it for me Christmas '07. I never carry anything else - usually.... I will admit purses are my weakness. I have a ton of them, but this one is special to me.

I can fit a lot of stuff in here, amazingly. I have my little black wallet, my Blackberry, my inhaler, hand sanitizer, check book, pens, gum, my very extensive list of meds - you k now, just in case, etc etc. Nothing exciting... as long as I place everything strategically in there, it all fits!!

3. Tag some fellow bloggers and link back to this post so people know why you are posting pictures of your bag. << I know no one will do this, so I will save the tagging, for another day :-)

Soap Operas...

Why am I obsessed with watching Y&R and Days of Our Lives? They are so horribly cheesy and stoopid. The lines people say to each other are awful!!!

"Max (gazing in to Chelsey's eyes) says... I love this place too. Almost as much as I love your eyes."

SERIOUSLY?! WHO says stuff like that? I have to admit, if my husband said something like to me, while I would be flattered, I would pee my pants laughing hysterically... Of course we are the most unromantic people on the planet, so maybe that's why LOL

YAY!!

So as you have read (maybe), when I got married, life was a bit crazy... just got out of the hospital, have major open heart surgery right after, etc etc. Then, when I thought life was back to normal, I get thrown in to the hospital again for bleeding to death LOL.

Needless to say, the little tasks of legally becoming MRS KENDRA MASSEY as far as the United States Government and the state of Texas, were the LAST thing on my mind.

Well I FINALLY got my lazy butt around to changing my name with Social Security and DPS. So I guess you could say that I am LEGALLY Mrs Kendra Massey now! WOO HOO!!!

Yay for laziness. Only took me a year and a half hahaha.